some things come from nothing

i have had a better time sleeping, my dreams have been very odd though. i had a zombie dream the other night. my family and i were trapped in a gas station. we sent out a beacon, and some of my friends arrived, the gas station turned into a big house, kind of like a model home, well, someone drove a van through the house, and our safety was compromised, so we had to run. we had a pretty good group, and we left in a caravan of sorts. we drove to a hotel with a parking garage, and what seemed to be a bunch of freeway on-ramps that lead to the hotel. it had a large plot of land behind it, on a sort of bluff, or cliff. my friends, who recently got married in real life, had not gotten married yet, and "today" was their wedding day, so in a strange frantic ceremony, we had to have their wedding on this bluff before the zombies got us... it gets kind of fuzzy after that. the next night i had a bunch of strange dreams in which i had missing limbs. i wasn't scared, or upset by these dreams, in fact they were interesting and warrant reflection. i started a new piece, pastels and i cut my hair. i still have this unsettled feeling, and i am in a way happy that this year is nearly over. it has been memorable, that's for sure. challenging. i like my new piece, it's very calm though, not at all reflecting my state of mind right now. i have found that if i am calm, my work is loud and kind of disturbing, but if i am restless, my work is collected. odd. it is pretty balanced though i guess.