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I am an artist, a wife, a mother, a friend, a deviant and a special education teacher. I say artist first because I cease to be sane if i don't work on my art, seriously, I have to go into therapy... My work is an evolution of my experiences and philosophy. It spans multiple mediums and subjects, most recently focusing on the balance of expression and form. I spend a lot of time on chaos theory and macro/micro theory. The theory of balance and entropy in the universe fuels my inspiration. I love movies and philosophy, sometimes spiraling into deep conversations about both. These are my musings and thoughts, as well as insight into my artistic process and my work View more at: GoldenSpiralDesigns.deviantart.com redbubble.com/people/caitlinpadilla

Saturday, October 1, 2011


those who liquify the thoughts that trip off our minds,
you you who slip past us, unsusspectingly, thoughtless,
we fall so so so carefully, slowly, softly,
i hit the pavement with the force of all that has come before me
the wight of the world is on my shoulders
and yet all i want to do is throw a party
who am i to be the bearer of it all?
i am no one,
as are you
do not carry the weight
it is as light as feather
and as heavy as the sun
i love
i live
i am
we all grow like the endless weeds on the fence line
those who say we will fail
those who do not understand
those who dictate what we do
they are the problem
i do not obey you
you are not my deity
i do not have to answer to you
i only have to answer to myself
and the answer is

Friday, August 19, 2011

time and tide wait for no man

I must remember
remember the way you feel
remember the way you touch me
the way you look at me and the way you smell,
because someday it will be gone
it will be different
it will be gone
not entirely,
but this
this will be gone
lying in bed,
smiling, laughing
in your embrace
these past months have reminded me of what it is like
to be loved
i wish it would never end
i would spend an eternity entwined with you,
watching movies
listening to the rain stream off the porch
i must remember this,
this too shall pass

Sunday, July 24, 2011

oh, those summer nights

we have been in a drought for so long, this week has brought beautiful, big, fat, pancake drops to quench our thirst! i love it. i was sitting on the porch just watching the rain pool and slide off the roof. it was amazing. it took ten minutes to cool the air twenty degrees. i felt so full of love and calmness. i sat in the warm embrace of a kindred soul, drinking up the love that was given to me. i have had moments lately where and when i have been completely at peace. falling into a soft sweaty embrace, laughing till i can't think, all of this is much more meaningful that any professional development or training that i have ever had. the summer has brought so much more than heat, it has brought awakening, confusion, lust, and reflection. i dont know where i'm going, but i am having a blast getting there.

Friday, July 1, 2011

republican nominees

michele bachmann is a crazy bitch, who has a very limited knowledge base, which she is using to gain popularity

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

What it is

so, this is going to change... this is now the life of a teacher... a married teacher, in the suburbs. we are here. we are the products of the eighties. we are enlightened and have a voice.
i have a voice
this is my voice.
no one ever told me what it would be like to be an adult. period. no one had a sit down and tried, in any way, to rationally talk to me about growing up. it is crazy. i don't feel grown up. i am 31, and i do not feel like i am 31. what does that mean? first of all: THERE IS NO HAPPILY EVER AFTER. im sorry to break it to you. if you have a daughter do not feed her this fallacy. please. for the good of humanity, don't. i am not saying there is no happiness, quite the contrary. i am happy, and have been happy for most of my life, but i never thought a prince would come and save me. there is no prince. you are the only person who will ever save you. know that. life is beautiful and there is more out there for you than you could possibly imagine, but YOU are the only person that can make that happen.

Sunday, April 24, 2011


i was just having a conversation about belief. he said, i don't believe in anything. I said that i didn't believe that he could not believe in anything... everyone believes in some thing... After a minute or so, he said that maybe he did believe in somethings, so, the question came about: what do you believe in? it is apt for the occasion, so... i believe in me. i believe in love. i believe in truth. i believe in life. i believe in the good of people. i believe you can fix it. i believe in rainbows. i believe in the healing power of laughter. i believe, this too shall pass. i believe it will all be ok. i believe there is something more. i believe in you. i believe that everything matters, however, you can never harm beyond repair. this is what i believe, how about you?